Hi P. I’m hacking this cause this is your only account left that you haven’t changed your password. I’ve been trying to talk to you since Christmas but you continue to ignore me because you greatly mad at me. I’m really sorry. I’m regretting everything. Every single decision and action that I did since October 15, the day that I broke up with you.. I was stupid and careless with my decisions. I didn’t really think of the future and what we’re feeling. Right now, I’m feeling sadness, regret and anger. I’m angry with myself for doing that stupid decision. And you, you’re mad. No. You’re furious at me. I get it. I did a lot of shitty things that hurt you so bad. I know I don’t deserve a second chance but my heart is still wishing that there will still be a small hope for me. It’s okay if you don’t want to welcome me as your best friend or someone special anymore. But a friend or acquaintance will do for me. I need you. I’m fucked up without you. I need someone whom I can run to whenever every thing’s against me. I’m longing for you. But what I long more is me being there for you when you need me. Me thinking that even if I don’t text you, you know that I’m there somehow waiting for you to return, caring for you and I will never leave you again. I really miss you. The things that I’m saying and I was texting you for the past days were true and coming from my heart. I hope you’ll listen to me. I hope you’ll give me a chance. I really miss you. I miss my best friend, my boo, my cupcake and my rainbow after the rain. I miss my Pat. I’m sorry for everything.. I was reckless and selfish. Everyday that I know you’re mad at me is like hell for me. I want to make it up to you. I know after you have read this you’d probably change your password and hate me more. I guess I don’t have any choice after that but accept that fact. This is my last chance to talk to you. To tell you things coming from my heart.
To summarize everything that I said.
I’VE BEEN A BITCH FOR THE PAST MONTHS. I DIDN’T TREASURE THE ONE PERSON WHO CARED FOR ME THE MOST. I WAS RECKLESS AND STUPID. I’VE CHANGED A LOT AND I BECAME WORSE. NOW, I’M REGRETTING EVERYTHING THAT I DID. I’M REALIZING HOW IMPORTANT YOU ARE TO ME. I MISS YOU SO MUCH AND I KNOW I CAN’T LIVE WITHOUT YOU EVEN JUST FOR A FRIEND. I’M SO SORRY FOR ALL THE SHIT THAT I DID. I’M WILLING TO CHANGE FOR YOU. AND MOST OF ALL, I LOVE YOU.
-J
